For A Friend

Im sorry Im not who I used to be.
Im sorry Im not the person you want me to be.
Im sorry that we barley talk.
Im sorry I got fucked up in the processes of growing up.
Im sorry I changed and cant go back.
Im sorry you feel like a fucking door mat.
Im sorry for a lot of things whether you believe me or not.
But dont think for a second that there isnt a minuet in the damn day were I wish I could go back to being that person that you knew.
To the days were we stayed up late making each other laugh and giggle.
To the days were we showed affection and talked everyday about anything we had on our minds.
To the days I would come crying to you and you would take away the pain with a few words.
To the days were I felt like I belonged and felt that nothing else mattered.
To the days were I thought I was in love with you.
But those days are gone thanks to the dark cloud thats blocking the sun in my days.
But those days will come again soon I know they will because Im working on getting better.
I'm working on getting that silly, gigglily girl back who would do photoshoots just for you.
That girl who knew who she was and had not a worry in the world.
Please keep holding on thats all I ask of you.
Please be patient and wait for me to come back.
Please thats all I want.
But if you leave for good I understand.
I dont blame you.
I dont judge you.
I know I can be a pain in the ass.
I know I can be a bitch.
I know I can be down right awful.
But at one point thats what you loved about me…
My friend all I ask is that you wait.